Self Harm

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Dear TWE,
I'm really scared to say this,
I've self-harmed.
I've been doing this since last June so for a while now, i guess sometimes i don't find life worth living, and pretty much hate myself i guess.
I've told my mam and sister back when i first did it and i got "support" off the school, but it just made me worse and feel unwanted like i was wasting her time. So i stopped going, and after that i stopped hurting myself. But two weeks ago i started again and my mam doesn't know, she thinks one session will fix the whole problem.
I find it really hard to talk to my mam, or anyone really, i feel disgusting for doing it but i can't stop and i hate talking about my feelings. I feel like she doesn't care either shes always busy with work or something else.
Anon xo

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Dear Anon,
Please don't injure yourself,you are amazing and beautiful and they don't deserve to make you suffer more than you do now. Telling someone is the first step to recovery so telling us is amazing and shows you want to overcome this.
​You are not wasting anyone's time, this is important, you are injuring yourself, and your mum should have been checking with you and how you have been. If you don't feel comfortable telling your mum, maybe try by working your way up,start with how you are feeling and keep doing so until you are comfortable to tell her properly. 
I have an idea which may sound stupid, but sometimes stupid works.
Carry around a little notebook and every time you feel the urge to self-harm draw a little tally, or two if necessary. Maybe even write how you feel if its that bad.
Remember we will always be here for you if you need it.

Love Emily xx​

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This was a conversation over text between me (Emily) and my friend, she gave me permission to post that is why it seems quite choppy, i tried to write it as a letter as much as i could without changing what she said :)