Don't cut the closest people

Hi so I don't really know what to do anymore.last year was the worst year of my life,I had a lot going in at school and did a few things I was not proud of and I hated myself for a long time because of it.then I decided everything was a product of the choices I had made so I eliminated all those people out of my life in hopes that it would get better some time but it didn't. I live with my gran and aunt and they treat me like absolute crap they shout at me for nothing and really just mentally put me down and is gets so bad sometimes and I walked out of the hose this morning I'm supposed to be going to school but I'm sitting on the road cause I'm in tears and I can't go to school like this I don't know what to do because it is getting really bad and I'm scared I do something I regret like I did previously.and on top of it I have really bad anger issues and its getting bad again and I'm scared I end up hurting someone seriously 
LAX

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Hi I'm Lily, nice to meet you ❤
Maybe you haven't had the best year of your life. However, if you really try and learn from your mistakes then things can turn for the better. Eliminating people from your life isn't always the answer, sometimes you can learn to live with them and repair whatever you/they broke in your relationship.
It's great that you're understanding your mistakes and how some things are a result of those mistakes! That's the first step in changing for the better and realising your flaws.
The situation with your Auntie and Gran is quite complicated I'm sure. However, at the end of the day, they are your family and they can't help but love you. It's a common occurrence for family members to shout at you for no reason, but if you ever feel like it's getting too much then try and find something to distract yourself. Like a hobby or maybe even a club that can lighten your spirit and help you to meet new people.  
If you're finding it difficult to find a club or distract yourself, then try telling your family how you feel. They may not understand but they may think about how they act towards you if you tell them.
If you're scared about hurting someone because you have anger issues then try some breathing exercises, maybe even a charm or item to fiddle with to help you calm down. I used to have really bad anger issues and I always found that taking deep breaths and fiddling with magnets helped me.
 
 I really hope I've helped you out even if it's just a little ❤
 Good luck! You'll get through this xx

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