i'm doing so bad mentally and i have no clue what to do anymore...
i'm getting such bad intrusive thoughts and its starting to ruin me and my relationship as well. I've been distancing myself more and its hurting other people. i've become blunt and arguing more with people. i keep finding myself thinking what if about situations where id end up dying.
i'm trying my hardest to keep positive and okay and happy but it just isn't happening and its so difficult. i'm getting so frustrated with myself because of how bad i'm getting after having good mental health for so long.
Have you thought about potentially speaking to a therapist / counsellor of any kind? I completely understand where you're coming from. Distancing yourself from people probably isn't the wisest decision to make, as it won't make anything better. The way I got through a similar situation is I told a certain amount of people how I was feeling, and asked them if they could help me in little ways to take my mind off my thoughts.
I completely understand the bluntness thing you're talking about too. Its difficult to speak to people when they don't know your situation, so I think you should try speaking to a select amount of friends and see how you go.
hopefully those thoughts of "What if" will ease and make sure you're surrounding yourself with people you really trust. I hope you're able to get through this soon. Don't forget we are always available for a chat at TWE on any of our social media accounts.
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