Going From 100 to 0 In The Blink Of An Eye

By Mel

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Growing up, I wasn’t really much of a social person, I would just be my tomboy self hanging out with the boys, and playing football. But of course, that was looked down upon when I started high school. 

The reason for that is when I got to high school people started questioning me and really judging me for what I liked to do, which was “boys' stuff”. I was a young girl growing up playing football and hockey, having a passion for sports.  

This is when I started to make ‘fake friends’ let me define that for you. It’s when you find yourself surrounded by so-called “friends” that actually don’t like you. They talk down to you, they find it funny to make jokes here and there about you and also they like to show you up.

When I was in high school I thought I would change who I was just to get some more you know “girlfriends”. I changed my appearance and my love for sports, was no more. 

A classic example of “showing you up” is; When I made those changes to myself, that was when I was struck by lightning but in a way of friendship. I was in a friendship group that treated me like I was dirt, and walked all over me, that’s not a real friendship group.

From there, I started to see people’s true colors, but then I fell back into the same hole a few years later. From the age of 15 - 21, I had tons of friends! Friends from around the world, friends I’d travel with and friends I thought I’d have for a lifetime. But I was wrong. 

When I hit the age of 21 things started to go downhill again with friendships. As I mentioned before I used to travel a lot with my friends but when I started to have seizures I learned who my true friends were.

The people I thought loved and cared for me just vanished and left me. They didn’t want the responsibility of having a friend who has seizures. When going to concerts they didn’t want to miss the show due to a friend having to go to an ambulance to get checked. 

Like I can understand why and I understand it’s not their responsibility to do so, I’m not their child. But the thing that got me was when this happened, they didn’t want to be around me in general anymore which broke my heart. 

I thought the friendship group I had for several years was going well and it was a huge part of my life, it made me happy. But to then go from 100 - 0 in the space of a month.. Well, that was a big strike in the heart. 

So, going from 100 - 0 in the blink of an eye can happen at any point in your life, but that doesn’t mean you won’t make other friends along the way. Right now, I don’t really go out with friends as I don’t have any local ones but I do have online friends.

These online friends are ones I can laugh with, I can go to if I need help the ones I really am blessed to have in my life right now. Even though I can’t physically go to them and just get a simple hug, ( which is needed from time to time ) it’s still nice to have someone who is supportive and well, just there to talk to.