crisis

Hello, it’s Caitlyn. Last year, I went through a crisis. I’d ask myself questions, none of which had answers. They were like demons that would haunt me, leaving me unable to sleep, with my heart racing a mile a minute. Who am I? What kind of relationships do I have, and why do I have them? Have I been making effective choices? Am I where I need to be in terms of skill for my career? These were all questions that ran through my mind on a daily basis.
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    What hurt me most was the feeling I was missing something but I’d only realized as I’d needed it. What I’d lost was myself.


    I know that so many people go through this same thing. I’ve figured out who I want to become, and hopefully I can help you do the same.
    I stopped eating, I lost motivation to go out and see people and do the things I love. Something inside me had snapped, and here’s what helped me get through that.


-Join a new club. It could be anything from band to a book club to a sports team, but something will stick. It may take a few tries and you might not find the right thing at first, but don’t give up. Eventually something will stick.


-Listen to new music. Bands like twenty one pilots, Panic! At the Disco, Fall Out Boy, and My Chemical Romance all have helped people in different ways, just as they helped me find who I wanted to be. They were big staples in my playlist.


-Write everything down in a journal. This may sound cheesy, but keeping your ideas organised can help speed up the process because you may figure out something you hadn’t seen before. Writing down feelings of stress, anger and the like can help find solutions to those problems, and even if you just need something to rant about, you’ll feel better almost instantly after putting your feelings on the paper. Nobody would need to see it, either.


These are definitely the things I’ve used in the past that have helped me become who I am today. These may not work for everybody, but hopefully something I’ve said or even just the pure knowledge that somebody has gone through the exact same thing will comfort you.


See you later,

Caitlyn