Death is a very difficult thing to deal with. It's a known fact that everyone dies at some point. Around 500,000 people die in England every year and so it's common knowledge but that doesn't make it any easier to cope with when it happens. Especially when it's happening to you or someone you're close to.
I haven't had the easiest time with death to be frank about it. Since the age of 3, death has unfortunately been a massive part of my life by taking some of the most important people in my life away from me.
I lost my grandad at 3 from an aneurysm and I didn't really understand death or what an aneurysm was then - I was a little kid, I didn't really know what that meant. I still don't really understand aneurysms now. All I know is I hate it for taking my grandad away before I can even properly make memories with him.
Then at 5, I lost my uncle to dilated cardiomyopathy. The silent killer, they called it. I still didn't really understand but this time I attended his memorial. I was too young to attend his funeral.
When I was 11, I went to my first funeral - the funeral of my dearest grandma. I fully understood death by this point and it was one of the hardest to deal with. It was such a shock - a heart attack - and it was the pain of knowing that, by admittance of the paramedics, she could never have been saved.
Again at age 14. This time it was my grandpa, husband of my grandma. We'd slowly been losing him ever since she passed away but it was cancer that took him.
The final and most recent death of someone who was close to me was my nan. She was in a care home and it was the most peaceful death of them all, if that’s a thing. I sat with her after she passed away, holding her hand and stroking her hair. It was the only person I got to really say goodbye to, properly.
It never gets easier. The pain never goes away. You just learn to live with it. However, here are some tips to help you cope when the pain and grief is most raw.
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Stay strong, my loves.