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TRIGGER WARNING

Abuse
You feel worthless
You feel as if you're a punching bag for someone else to let their anger out
My father hurt me when I was younger
He was an alcoholic
And my mother mainly emotionally scarred me but physically at times too
Being hit, or held down, or powerless is awful
I was also raped when I was younger, twice.
But I've only ever told 3-4 people
Not my parents
But, I know now I should've told someone
When my father hit me, I told my school counsellor
It made it worse for me at home
And, the school barely even tried
My father and mother have no recollection of what happened
They blacked out during all of it
(I'm going to clarify, my father was not the one who raped me)
Two of my neighbours did
I'm finally basically over it at this point
I'm just saying, I wish someone would've told me to speak out
Because keeping all of this in for several years, is so unhealthy
I was drowning inside every day over this
It was so much pain
Please, if you're being hurt at your house
Or even by your significant other
And it's really bad, you need to tell someone
Before it's too late
People care, and it will make it easier
I know it hurts, so bad to feel the pain
But trust me, telling someone what's going on
Will really help <3

Abby