dreading work or school

Sometimes, it can feel like you are always going to be stuck in the same place. You get home from school or work and it's like you are trapped, as if you have no choice. Having to go to a toxic environment everyday can be hard, but you don't have to stay there forever. 

Personally, when I was younger I always enjoyed going to school and I was really excited to be going to secondary/high school. Maybe my ideas were distorted from what others had told me or what I had seen on tv, but it was nothing like I expected. 
At first, I made a few new friends and everything seemed fine, but only after a few weeks I started to feel more alone than I ever had. My "best friend" started hanging around with other people, and I was the one alone for every single thing. Whether it was partners or groups, I was always the person who no one wanted to go with. Sure, I had a few friends, but none of them cared enough to offer to go with me. I began to dread going to school everyday because of the embarrassment and how lonely I felt. At the same time, someone I heard someone was spreading rumours about me, and it felt as if everyone was against me. At school, I had no one. 
Now, I have a group of friends who I love, but I still often feel like an outsider. I constantly feel like I'm the one that no one really wants to be there. This makes me hate going to school. 

When I feel low or unhappy, I remember why I'm going to school. I want to learn and my future is important. Just thinking about all the things I want to do and am going to do makes me realise how I can get through not enjoying school for a while. I often go on Pinterest and look at places I want to travel, look at universities I might be interested in going to and places I might want to work when I'm older. 
However, you shouldn't go through any part of your life dreading every day, so try your best to enjoy school even though you might not like everything you are doing. Don't stay friends with toxic people, and don't worry about being popular. Just try to enjoy being a teenager because it won't last ever. Try not to get too stressed and know that everything is going to work out okay. You might not think you are happy now but try to appreciate all the good things you have in life. 

Whilst I still dread waking up in the morning and dealing with people, teachers, lessons and things I don't like, I realised how small my problems really are. If possible, you should try your best to enjoy every day. I know that it is easier said than done but I promise if you try to keep thinking positive you will find your day gets more positive. However, if you are really unhappy and nothing can be done, you need to get away from all the negativity. If school or work is badly affecting your mental health then don't be afraid to get out. Talk to your parents about finding a new school. You shouldn't have to continue to go somewhere or do something that isn't good for you. Next time you feel stuck, just think about all the good things you have done and will do in the future.
​Ella