All it takes is one night to ruin anything!
It’s 2017 and I’m 15 it’s the day after Halloween and I'm scared, I’m crying. Not really sure where I am but I'm holding the hand of my best friend and I'm in a room where I never planned on going.And the walls are not so grey but green. And the light is so bright it could burn a hole through the seam of my jeans.my phone is buzzing in my pocket, my mum is asking if I remembered my keys. But I can’t tell my mum where I’ve gone.I can't tell anyone at all…
It’s two weeks later and I’m still dying inside, and what hurts more is that nobody knows what exactly is wrong.But will they ever know? Putting on a fake smile so no one around you suspects a thing. But still having that fear lingering in your head knowing that it could be happening to another innocent person, and just like yourself not being able to do anything to stop it.
Another week goes by and not only have all your grade dropped in school but you no longer speak to any of your friends because you cut them off just in case they found out. but still, have the same fear because of that one night that was meant to be the best night of your life that turned out to be the worst.
During that third week that's passed, a boy who was there at the time of the incident and tells you that they know everything. And that he's going to tell your family. But you and him both know that it's the only news that would break your family.
Not only does the biggest blabbermouth now know about that night but in the same week, you have exams coming up. Not knowing what to do with life anymore. Has this moment ruined me for the rest of my life, has a moment like this ruined someone else's life, And were they just as innocent as me.
It's been a month, No matter where you go he's there, not knowing if it's actually him or if it's just another hallucination.But it is actually him and he's living the life of luxury because nothing bad has happened to him but your whole life has been torn apart. He approaches you and attempts to speak but all you can think of is what happened that night so you just run. And when you get home you can’t even say anything about it because that would mean you would have to talk about what happened on the night of Halloween.
Not knowing what to do, do you finally tell or do you try and forget. So you try and forget, But you should never have thought about that option. It’s been two months and you’ve met someone you really like and you end up speaking then getting together but too soon. You realise that you were too close but as best friends not as lovers. You're happy for her because she has a new boyfriend and she's happy for you because you’ve moved on but then to discover two months later that's she’s been hiding something from you something you never thought could have happened to someone that close to you. What had happened to you had now happened to her.
So this is where it goes back to, It’s 2018 and we’re scared in the same not so grey but green room, The light is still so bright that it could burn a hole in the seam of your jeans. But this time your both crying…
It's now 2019 and you still haven't spoken about it but have realised you have no other option because this time it's GCSE and not just mocks. You finally tell the only person you can trust with such a secret, and no surprise they want to kill the person who has torn your life apart, but you stop them because it could have made the situation a lot worse.
But now you don’t care so much about yourself you care about the fact that he could do it to anyone else.
No matter what happens to you no matter how big or small you will always have someone to get through it with and I promise you, you will always get through it.
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