Toxic friendships are the worst things ever. You are trapped in a miserable friendship, but when the friendship is gone, you miss it.
My friend, we’ll call her R, made me feel guilty for EVERY LITTLE THING.
I had no choice to stay up all night with her to talk her out of doing things (I honestly didn’t mind that part, I felt honored that she trusted me) but then I got no thanks afterwards. She constantly cancelled plans on me, and then said I ditch her. My school attendance isn’t perfect, I admit that, but don’t ever let somebody make you feel guilty for being ill. There was this one time when I was in town with her and her girlfriend and I was sick. I was very clearly sick, I couldn’t stop sweating and I couldn’t stand up without wanting to collapse, I had no choice but to call my mum to come and get me. She was of course, really annoyed with me and blocked me. I ended up in hospital the day after with a temperature of 39, my mum messaged her and she didn’t care. She made that clear. In fact, she didn’t talk to me until our friend F brought us back together.
Recently, I said I was going to come into school, but then I threw up on the way. She called me horrible names and now very clearly hates me and says she will be better off without me, when in actual fact, and it breaks my heart to say this, I may be better off without her… If you are ever stuck in a friendship or a relationship where you aren’t happy, or you feel you can’t express yourself freely (I’m not allowed to talk about Glee because it is “stupid”, whereas she can talk about every little detail in her relationship and anime 24/7), you need to get out.
I know it may seem like they care about you, and they probably do deep inside, but if they keep hurting you, or keep expecting you to do things for them, them please please get out.
If you feel like you still want to be friends with them, tell them how they’re making you feel, if you don’t they will keep treating you like crap and it will just get worse. If you ever feel like you don’t know what to do in situations like these, my inbox is always open <3
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