Bulimia Nervosa is a serious mental health condition where the person that is affected will feel like they lose control over their eating then later keep track of their weight, shape and appearance of themselves. When they lose control over how much they eat this can lead to cycles of eating large amounts of food in a short space of time, this is known as ‘bingeing’. Can this become an addiction for trying to gain back that sense of control?
Throughout my teenage years, high school was pretty tough at times. I would get negative comments about my appearance as I wasn’t seen as the ‘girly girl’ in my year, I was more of a tomboy which I thought back then was nothing to be looked down upon or be made to feel ashamed of, but that’s when high school changed for me. After many years of dealing with the negative comments, I thought it was time for me to change my whole appearance. I started off with getting my hair re-styled as I always had it up in a ponytail.I also started to watch what I was eating, I never used to care about what I ate but one day that all changed just from one comment that a girl made about my weight. That comment was “I couldn’t even pick you up to throw you out the window, you are that heavy”. Ever since that girl made that nasty comment I’ve never been able to get it out of my mind and that happened over ten years ago, so it just proves that even one negative comment can change a person’s life! After this situation, I discovered I could starve myself to lose the weight so hopefully, I could impress that girl. At the time I didn’t believe that I was treating my body poorly all that mattered to me at the time was to get a positive comment for once about my appearance. Once my parents found out that I was starving myself they straight away sent me to the mental health unit and from then on I was having weekly therapy. I was moved from that high school to a new one for a fresh start and now I look back on it that was the best decision I have ever made! Starting this new high school was tough, I pretended to be someone who I wasn’t! I put on an act that everything was fine, I didn’t want anyone finding out about my past and then having the whole situation of negative comments coming back to haunt me. So how did I deal with the stress of my past coming back? I found out about Bulimia Nervosa. I brainwashed myself into thinking that I could eat anything I wanted and not put any weight on at all. Whenever I become depressed, anxious or just stressed out this was how I would have dealt with those emotions. I would wait till my parents had gone to bed to go downstairs go into the kitchen and make so much food so that I could binge on it. At the time it felt like I had that control back that I hadn’t felt for years. This became a routine for me and no one found out about it until one night I was court by my brother then he told my parents what he had witnessed me do then I was sent back to the mental health clinic for more help! I didn’t realise at the time that this was a serious mental health condition I just thought it was a way of gaining back that control I once had but I was totally wrong. So, several years on and now I’m 20 and yes, I am still a bulimic. I do have my good days now where I can eat without having the thoughts of going to the bathroom to make myself purge but then there are days where them thoughts take control and it’s hard to fight off! My question is can this mental illness become an addiction? Can this condition from binging then to making yourself sick afterwards become a coping mechanism for stress? Was this my way of dealing with all those years of hate and grief from the bullying because I didn’t speak up to anyone about it? In my eyes, yes it was and it still is today. It’s hard to break a cycle that has taken over your daily routine for years. This is what I turn to for when I’m feeling depressed or alone, so is it the same for when people who are addicted to drugs or drinking? Is it their way out of the real world to a world that they control? Mel
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Summary: In this article, Mel explains why she thinks that relationships are not that important to have in life. Many parents want their children to grow up to have a good education then find the perfect person to marry settle down with and start a perfect family. But is this really the case?
Relationships are when two people get together ‘fall in love’ like a high school romance. Remember High School Musical movie series when Troy and Gabriella fell in love at first sight then in number three, Gabriella had to make the decision of either staying in the town she grew up in or move to a new one to start university. Would she stay for Troy as a high school romance? Or did she choose to take that chance to start her life at Stanford University? Things like what happened to Gabriella actually happen in real life. Making hard choices between the stuff you love and making a big decision for your future. But in High School Musical I heard Gabriella’s friend say to her, “ There will be other guys”. So, that makes me think straight away that there will be other relationships and her friend is encouraging her to move to Stanford and leave the relationship she has with Troy behind. Moving onto when parents plan your future out for you but you don’t have the chance to experience what others are doing. You don’t have a say in what you can do with your life. Some parents just want what’s best for their children which is understandable but they are not letting their children explore the world for themselves, to find their true selves. This is when mental health can become a part of the child’s life, because they are so confused as to what to do, so they build it all up inside their heads instead of talking to their parents like they should be able to without fear. The fear of rejection, the fear of being shouted out and being disowned. No child should be made to feel that way at all! They deserve to be supported on what decision they make themselves. School flings can sometimes turn into a serious part of your life, it does happen! Obviously there will be disagreements between the couple but that’s a natural part of life. If you decide to start a life and family with your high school fling I say go for it! If that’s what makes you happy you do that because that’s what really matters! If they support you in whatever you decide to do, then that’s so caring and what you deserve. But not being in a relationship is not the end of the world. If you see all your friends getting into relationships and you feel like you’re the odd one out, don’t punish yourself it’s okay to be single! I have been single for the best part of two years now and that’s because I made my own choice on focusing on myself! I wanted to improve my mental health, my physical health and most of all my happiness! Now here I am home studying a course I love doing and I can spend my time with friends and family when I want to. I don’t want a relationship because I feel like I’m not ready to have one and that’s my choice so no it’s not important to have a relationship for all your life. Get out and explore this beautiful world! -Mel Many of us suffer with trying to keep a healthy sleeping pattern. Many of us just overlook this and think nothing of the situation, but this can be much more of a problem than you think.
I have always had a problem with my sleeping as a child, like being excited on Christmas Eve or Halloween, as I’m a massive Halloween fanatic. I thought this would stop by the time I finished high school but I was wrong. Some nights I can have a brilliant night’s sleep but most of the nights are awful to try and fall asleep. Tossing and turning, trying to get comfortable, it’s a pain in the neck! I wanted to solve this problem as it was draining me and I couldn’t enjoy a full day out without yawning and just feeling so down in the dumps. I felt like a zombie, dragging myself around with my friends. So what did I do to solve this issue? I made a doctor’s appointment for the next day as I couldn’t take it anymore feeling like this, I wanted to have my energetic self back! Having my cheshire cat smile on my face whilst I made awful jokes to my family but I couldn’t even do that as I was that tired. When I saw my doctor they done some quick tests and he said to me that it’s due to my mental wellbeing. As I have been suffering with Bulimia Nersova for many years the doctor narrowed it down to that physical mental illness that I had been diagnosed with. The doctor explained to me that Bulimia Nervosa was draining me and taking all my energy away from my physical self. As I am eating my body thinks that it’s being fed but then with Bulimia Nervosa you go straight to the toilet after eating then you purge, so basically bring all you just ate back up. Which is not healthy at all! You are tricking your mind and body into thinking it’s being fed when in reality you are starving yourself! So, as I have been suffering with Bulimia for many years, this has had a negative affect on my body and mind physically and mentally. The doctor put it in the most simplest way possible for me to understand properly, ‘As the body and mind are not getting the fuel it needs this makes the mind confused on what to do. Going to sleep at night needs you to have concentration and the control of relaxation so you can fall soundly asleep’. But as I’m not getting that, the mind is overthinking and basically crying out as it’s starving. This can have the same effect on the body too; having aches and pains,
The last thing the doctor said to me was “It’s down to you now Melissa, you got to gain that control back over your Bulimia Nervosa”. That hit me really hard if I’m honest and till this day it still makes me question myself ‘Why am I putting myself through this?’ Mental health can affect your sleeping pattern badly so I advise you to go and see your doctor or local hospital to find out more information and what support there is to help you get a good night's sleep! Mel Many people see periods as being this scary stage in life and they don’t know what to expect from it. Basically, when everyone is growing up the body changes. For girls, when they hit the end of puberty the uterus releases blood throughout the vagina. This usually starts around the age of twelve but every girl’s body has their own schedule.
Have you ever wondered why you get a period once a month? Well, here’s the answer! Hormones cause the lining of the womb to build up and this usually takes around a month to happen then after that has happened each month it breaks down gradually to restart the process. The period usually lasts for around five days but like I stated before it all depends on the woman’s body process. If you guys follow our articles monthly and follow us on social media you should be familiar with the members of TWE. Getting to know their background stories and what they have experienced in life too if you could relate in any way and have a few questions for them to answer to maybe help you in the near future. I’m going to be continuing part of my story from the bulimia side of it, how the mental illness actually stopped me from having periods. At the start, I didn’t think anything of it no danger or any harm to come to my body but I was wrong. All of my friends would have conversations about period pains and other stuff relating to that subject but I would feel so clueless because I hadn’t experienced them for a few years so I had forgotten how it felt. This got me thinking “was I an outcast to everyone else?” So, that afternoon I spent my time researching about the whole situation. Why was I experiencing this? After a few hours of writing down facts and clues to maybe why I was not having periods, I came across someone else who shared their exact same experience online. She explained that she had stopped eating because she was getting bullied and she wanted to lose weight but what she didn’t realise was what harm that would cause to her body. Now like I said a few lines back I also suffered from an eating disorder but it took me a good few years to come to terms with that. This was the start of my journey to get help! I read on in detail about what this girl had experienced and found that I could relate to so much of what she had said. She explained that at first, she felt like not having a period was another weight lifted off her shoulders not having to worry about leaking blood whilst out having fun. But, then she went into detail how over a few months of not having periods that her body started to change and give her pains where she usually didn’t get them. When I was reading this I could understand what she was talking about and how it didn’t seem natural for the body to have pains like that, it was just so unreal! After reading more, I decided that I had to go and see a specialist and get their opinion on what to do next. I got in touch with a specialist and they wanted me to come in for tests, so then they can assist me further on what to do and how to go about solving it. I went for the tests and I received the results back a week later… amenorrhea. At first, I had never heard of it but like I did before I went home and did some research into it what it was and how it affected the body. Amenorrhea occurs when the body is in a state of ‘energy insufficiency’ which in other words, when you eat food you intake calories which help function and program your body to move and take every day. But, without this power of the food, you will have no fuel to help you live your everyday life. So, once you stop the calorie intake the body slowly begins to feed on other parts of your body that it shouldn’t because it has nowhere else to turn and you are focusing your body to do activities without the energy it needs to go ahead and do it. So from this, the body begins to slowly shut down. Parts of your body begin to change as I mentioned before and you start to damage your body. This damage can be fixed but the longer you leave it the more toxic it becomes and you will have less chance of recovering. -Mel Let’s begin with how I get the ideas for the articles I write. Growing up, all of us experience many weird and wonderful moments but then these moments turn into memories. So, what do I do to remember those special memories? I write them down and turn them into either stories, articles or even vlogs for my Youtube channel. Then one day I can look back on them and just smile like a Cheshire cat remembering every detail about what happened on that day/night.
Some of my favourite memories that I made are when I went to London once to see my friends who I don’t get to see that much due to distance. I met one of those friends at Euston station and from there we went exploring in London. We ended up at this weird museum where there were aliens in small jars and some creepy storybooks hanging from the ceiling! I just had to do a vlog on this so I could show others some of the many secrets London has. After filming vlogs for so long I thought it was time to take a small break from editing, but I didn’t want those future memories to be forgotten so I started to write about them. So how did it feel changing how I captured those memories? At first, it was very weird not talking to a camera about how my day went etc. But leading up to my decision on taking a small break, I was losing my confidence on camera. I hated the way I looked and spoken, that would make me mess up during filming and then that would make me feel so anxious I’d end up just deleting the video altogether! Making the decision to start writing instead of vlogging was pretty tough but it really helped me in the long run! Now I’m writing for this amazing blog, Teenagers With Experience and I’m so glad Emily reached out to me about sharing my experiences with others online to help them not feel alone! When I’m writing my heart away on articles it also feels like it’s taking so much weight off my shoulders too! Others like to keep journals or diaries and yes I do keep them myself, sometimes when I’m travelling or just out for the day with family I like to carry that journal with me and if I get any ideas for articles I can easily write them down. Then when I get home I can start writing about what I saw and turn it into either a story or an article. People like to describe me as being creative and I feel like I fit into that category and that’s one of the things I like most about myself that I can turn memories into stories. What I didn’t realise before is that those stories help others too and that’s also another thing I like to do is help people! I will do everything to see another person smile as it’s just a beautiful image to see. Here is a link to my personal Youtube channel; https://www.youtube.com/c/MelissaGrimes It’s grand to talk about how you feel and you should never feel ashamed to express your feelings! It’s a free world and let me tell you how it helps others too because they feel inspired by you to do the same too. -Mel The nights get darker earlier, pumpkin carving is on top of the to-do list. October is the month to bring out the true creative side to yourself. Experiment with makeup to see what art you can come up with. My all time favourite Halloween look has got to be The Joker because it’s such a simple look yet so terrifying so that just sums up the festive season!
What do I get up to in the upcoming weeks to Halloween? Well, first of all, I give my bedroom some Halloween DIY loving. I decided this year I wanted to go with an olden day style look with see through cotton for the ghostly look. Then I went out to buy some pumpkin pom poms to then hang up at every corner of where the cotton was. I also thought it was a grand idea to maybe add my own unique touch to the final design layout, some Halloween themed tinsil. So, after decorating my room I’m trying to think of some more creative ideas I could come up with to celebrate my favourite time of year. I thought maybe I could look up if there are any events I could go to and I came across one that was in my town where a couple have turned their own house into a haunted wonderland. They’ve been doing it for the last decade but I’ve never actually thought of attending the event, so maybe this year I will! But, why is Halloween my favourite time of the year? Well, being a lover of Jack Skellington from the famous movie, ‘The Nightmare Before Xmas’. I loved being different and Jack taught me that I shouldn’t be afraid of what I love. If I like to be awake at night rather than day time, so be it! Why let anyone change what you adore? Halloween is such a magical yet dark time of year. Imagine it being Halloween all year round, that would be my life! I think for this Halloween season I’m going to dress up as the Joker but add a wee bit of my own unique touch to spice it up. What I also love about Halloween is when you go outside and you see the wee jack-o'-lanterns outside people’s front doors. Also, I love all the scary events the local town/city comes up with like; - Twisted Circus which is being held in Liverpool this year! - Pumpkin carving, - After hours tour of haunted castles, going underground to the dungeons to see if you can make contact with the ghosts who haunt the jails. There are just some of the many events that I would like to attend! But for me it’s finding someone to actually come with you. Yes, I would go by myself but it’s also getting to the event as I don’t drive. So, I try to find local events being held but they are mostly for children like art & crafts days. I want something more gory so I think that haunted house I mentioned before in the article I will be visiting! Let me know what you’re getting up to this Halloween!
School days are all about being in smart uniform with natural hair colours and a minimal amount of makeup. School doesn’t really give you the chance to express who you really are. On the other hand, when it’s time for you to head to college it’s a completely different story.
When I started high school I wore no makeup and I always had my hair tied up. I considered myself as a tomboy, I always loved to play sports, unlike most girls in my year. In school there were friendship groups, they had their own group of friends that were interested in the same things, for example; makeup, hair, comics and many other topics . Since I was a girl everyone treated me weirdly because in my school there was this image of a ‘girl’ being into makeup and all things that are stereo typically classed as girly but just because I wasn’t interested in dolling myself up and seeing how pretty I could get, everybody treated me like I was a nobody. I’ll tell you the truth, I felt so ashamed of myself and I didn’t have a reason to be. When I started college it was a whole different experience from high school. I wasn’t seen as an outcast. Everybody had their own style that they loved to show off and share with other people. That’s what made college such a fun and exciting experience for everyone. I thought that people were just talking rubbish but it turns out they were right about how different it is. I was able to be my own person without being judged and I absolutely adored that! I met people with the same interests as me and they became lifelong friends of mine. Meeting people who won’t judge you on things you like to do is an amazing feeling! Another reason why college is different from high school is with the subjects you study of course. So in high school you have to study multiple subjects to get your final results at the end of high school known as GCSE’s. These subjects can range from English, Maths, Science and History. But with college you get to choose what you would like to study and focus your future on. Mel Relationships these days are pictured as a fairy tale. The one you meet will be your soulmate and the one you’ll be with forever. But, that’s not always the case. We all have our crushes in high school, well I did anyway. I remember seeing him walk down the hallway and I was just in a world of my own, I felt like an angel just watched past me.. Sounds stupid right? But that’s how I felt. Some people don’t like admitting to liking others, they are scared of rejection and what the person’s reaction would be.
I remember my first relationship being with a boy I met online. ( seems dumb right? ) but, there was something about him that I just thought, wow I can really relate to this guy on so many levels and I’ve never met him before. Little did I know he went to the same high school as my friend who lived about 45 minutes away from me. So, when I told her I was talking to this guy and told her what his name was she was so surprised. I was like “Wait what’s going on, is everything okay?” She just replied with “This guy, he goes to the same school as me and he’s in most of my classes”. My heart stopped. All of a sudden all these negative thoughts started entering my head telling me that I was worthless and that the guy I was talking to wouldn’t like me. My friend would think I’m dumb for assuming this guy liked me back. Little did I know the actions my friend would make next would be the opposite of what the thoughts were telling me. She went straight onto social media ( Facebook ) and she messaged him saying “Hey, I know the girl you’re talking to. Would you like to meet her?” Next thing, I was going on an arranged date made by my friend. It was like a fantasy.. Was this going to be my Cinderella moment? Let’s find out! The day came that I was finally going to meet this guy I had been talking to for almost 2 months. My friend joined me on this date because I’m terrible with meeting new people and my anxiety would hit the roof, especially with the guy I liked! Me and my friend sat down in Leon’s, ( it’s a restaurant that serves vegan food ). Then all of a sudden he walked in. My heart was beating like there was no tomorrow! I finally got to meet the guy I ‘fell in love with’. After our date we planned to meet up again during summer at a holiday camp. We did start dating but after 2 years it got a bit difficult due to the distance between us.. But I guess 2 years isn’t that bad, right? We still talk now, as friend though. But I am very grateful that my first love was him. He’s so sweet and has never done wrong by me. I can trust him with my life and I’m glad we are still friends! Several years on I turned 17. I met this guy who was taller than me, blue eyes and blonde hair. We exchanged numbers and next thing we started dating. It did go pretty fast if you ask me. At first, everything was perfect, he made me smile and he treated me with respect. I got to meet his family and his little sister was a ray of sunshine. It was like I met a mini-me. As the months past, the relationship started to crumble. I believe that the reason why the relationship taken a wrong turn is because of my mental health. I suffer with Bulimia Nervosa so it was very hard for me to go out for meals etc. But, I will give it to this guy, he helped me overcome this and now I can eat out in public. Back to the story; he was a very supportive guy when it came to my bulimia. But, it got too much for him and to be honest, I don’t blame him! If I was in his position I would probably be panicking on what to do. But, the guy I fell in love with wasn’t there anymore. He started treating me like I was worthless and had no meaning in the world. He went from making me feel like the most important person and someone who appreciated me to someone who just knew me as a stranger.. A hater if you like. It’s just so surprising how a person can just change in a flicker of an eye.. It really changed my opinion on people. Shortly after we broke up i found out that he was cheating on me for the last few months of our relationship with none other than my best friend ( at the time ). This torn me apart in two ways. One being that the guy I fell in love with was just throwing all that away for a person I thought I could trust with my whole life, turns out I can’t.. And the second reason being that in my mind the friendship meant more to me than it ever did to her. I can’t understand how you can break that bond of trust in the friendship just for a guy. I think the second reason torn my heart apart more because I knew this girl for such a long time, growing up with her. Sharing memories together, it was just like she threw them all in the trash to be forgotten. So, young love isn’t always what it seems. But that doesn’t mean it’s always going to turn out bad. It can lead on to greater things! For example, when this whole situation happened to me, I planned on moving to Scotland for a new job and that went ahead. I couldn’t be more proud of myself for taking that chance and putting myself first for once. It’s healthy to put yourself first, don’t hold back! That’s what I did for so long and then I finally broken the cycle. Take that chance now! - Mel. When I was around nine years old, just turning ten my favourite hobby was hockey. I was on the school hockey team, I went to tournaments and I just genuinely enjoyed being outdoors with my friends. I even remember one time I was at a hockey match and I was running with the ball and I was aiming for the goal but instead of pushing the ball into the goal with my hockey stick I ran into the metal post instead and knocked myself out. But, the ball did go in! GOAL!
Now I’m nineteen and left school behind I wanted to reconnect with my old love for hockey. Because that’s what once made me happy and I don’t want to be inside all the time watching TV or on my laptop. It’s nice to do something different plus you get to meet new people who have the same love in sport as you. It’s the end of Summer now whilst I’m writing this but it’s never too late to try something new! I’ve been looking for ways to try and reconnect with my old love for hockey and I found these tips quite handy;
2. You’ll always discover something new about the hobby and yourself. So, whilst I was relearning my hobby I discovered so many new things that I never thought I was capable of. I learned new tricks with my hockey stick and how to defend properly. It was a tough challenge don’t get me wrong, but it was worth it! 3.The beauty of me reconnecting to my old love for hockey was that I made new friends. I could share my love for a sport that helped me through tough times in my childhood, it was like my place to go if I needed a break. The friends I had made through hockey I now count as my life-long friends. They are just some of the reasons why I reconnected with hockey and I would never look back. I take lessons each week just to reboot my knowledge of hockey and for the fun obviously! I also introduced my hobby to my brother and he started to come to sessions with me and now he’s a hockey player. He is now 25 so a lot older than me but now he spends his spare time playing hockey for his local team. He’s gone all over the UK to compete in matches and I’ve been to every single one to cheer him on and support him. This is what made me want to reconnect with my old hobby. I adore traveling so to be able to travel and play my old hobby together made me realise this is what I needed to make me happy. Mel Going through your teenage years will be challenging; studying for your exams and making new friends, balancing work with your family and just generally learning about who you are. Sometimes you need to find a getaway or what I like to call it, Wonderland. (Yes, I am an Alice in Wonderland fan).
So, how did this whole ‘Wonderland’ come about? Well, when I was in school I used to get bullied for my hair. Being ginger was tough even though it was just a hair colour. The kids used to say to me my hair was on fire or call me “Ginger - Ninja”. It got so tiring let me tell you! But however, it later got more serious, physical. They would start pushing and tripping me. I attempted to tell one of the teachers but nothing was done about it. I felt like I didn’t matter like I was a nobody. So, after a few years of dealing with bullying I didn’t know what else to do but turn to self-harm to release all the pain, I was, incorrectly, blaming myself. If you don’t know what self-harm is, it can range from physically hurting yourself with a sharp object, for example, a razor blade, scratching yourself to burning yourself to seemingly minor behaviours such as nail digging or hair pulling Self-harm can occur for a wide variety of reasons, all unique to the individual. it may occur when the person who is harming oneself is going through a traumatic time in their life or are dealing with depressive episodes like bullying etc. However, the intention is rarely suicide. Instead, it can be to punish themselves, express their distress, relieve unbearable tension, take control or simply be a cry for help. Sometimes the reason is a mix and cannot be identified. That is also okay. As I mentioned previously, self-harm can also be a cry for help. Some people will say “Why not just get help?” It’s not as simple as that for some people and I am one of them. I started after a few years of being bullied because, as I said, I didn’t know where else to turn. I would come home from school and I would lock myself in my room and start harming myself. Unfortunately, wI looks back on it now and to be honest with you I wish I never turned to self-harm. Engaging in these behaviours daily meant they became a part of my routine. Until someone found out. It was one of my friends who later decided to tell my parents. It was just so frightening to hear. Thankfully, I reflect on it now and I couldn’t be more grateful for her decision because she was just looking out for me and she meant well! My parents sat me down that same day and asked me why, why didn’t I tell them how I was feeling. So my reply was, “Because I was afraid that you didn’t care and would get angry with me”. I don’t know why I thought that and to this day I still don’t have a reason why. They referred me to a specialist, a therapist who had experience in helping and supporting teenagers who go through stuff like this. The therapist I went to see was called Dr Lanzo and he was so funny I really got on well with him and the main thing was I felt comfortable with him. The sessions I had with him were so helpful! He didn’t ask me straight away why I was self-harming, he got to know me and find out my background first. I think that is really important for the therapist to do, it makes the patient feel comfortable. So after getting to know me, he delved into what the problem was and how he and I should resolve it. We started doing exercises that would help prevent me from turning to self-harm when I got in a depressive episode. These exercises were ones I could do at home, allowing me to extend my sessions beyond the therapy room. One of these exercises I really used regularly was journaling. I would have my own journal and I would do little tasks in it that would be helpful to me. Later I looked on Pinterest for more activities for me to do and there was so many that I never thought of. Here’s the link to what I found; https://www.pinterest.co.uk/search/pins/?q=journal%20inspiration&rs=rs&eq=&etslf=2358&term_meta[]=journal%7Crecentsearch%7C1&term_meta[]=inspiration%7Crecentsearch%7C1 I still use these exercises to this day because I love and enjoy doing them. It also motivates me each day! Some of my favourite ones though have to be; planning out my daily routine, things that make me happy and things that inspire me. Simple things like this can help you in your day-to-day life and make it much happier. My mood swings have changed dramatically since I’ve started this activity scheme. I surprise myself each day and it’s actually fun in some ways to learn something new about myself. I started YouTube back in 2012 because of the learning scheme I started to use. My Youtube has become a big part of my life now and I would never look back! My Youtube is like a personal journal to me and also a thing to look back on old memories. I never knew starting my own channel would become such an important part of my life, it’s like I’m showing people my life in a movie. I think I’ll do a separate article on how my Youtube entered my life and how it’s going right now. So, make sure you keep an eye out for that one! If you’re interested in what I have said and would like to visit my channel here is a direct link; https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGFmBAacICpZ4iZtNp3PKXA?view_as=subscriber -Mel <3 |